This is very valid question, however. One that I probably don't ask myself often enough. This morning I'm asking because of a video that has been circulating online this week. It was posted on YouTube by Dove on Monday and it shows how different women perceive themselves versus how others perceive them. It is not entirely eye-opening to me as I know I view myself far more skewed than others do. I am my worst critic and enemy. I always have been. However, realizing that I am not alone and that there are many other women who view themselves as harshly as I view myself, that is a bit eye-opening.
When I look at myself in the mirror most of the time I will see the flaws. It is rare that I see a beautiful woman looking back at me. I have moments where I see her, and others where I see a "pretty" fact looking back. But generally I see imperfections that I would like to have fixed. I am told by those who know me and care for me that I am beautiful. I hear them, and I do try to believe them but it is difficult. It is a constant battle. I am starting to get to the point where I do believe it, and I am trying to embrace it so I can be that beautiful woman everyone sees. The truth is I cannot be truly beautiful unless I believe it myself.
Over the past weeks I have been forced, yet again to realize how strong a person I am. I have been told for years that I am strong, but again it isn't something I truly see in myself. Despite a few moments of true despair and the need to be weak for a bit, I know I am strong. I have been through a great deal in my life, and everything I have encountered has shaped me into the woman I am today. I have no regrets and would not change any decision I have made at any point in my life. To change anything would mean that I not only wouldn't be the woman I am, but that I may not have met some of the people who influence my life greatly.
Before I answer my own question, I would like to ask everyone who is reading one question: Will you take 3 minutes of your day to watch the video? Please do. As for who I am? I am a strong, beautiful woman. Yes, I have flaws but they do not define me. They help make me who I am.